I swear to god I can feel you in the air. I see you everywhere. It takes all of my will to surrender, and not speak, not call, not intersect with you, not text message you. My heart breaks a hundred times a day, and I see you in everything I do.

I do not see it as a virtue of any kind to let go of these gifts. I do not see it as a lesson, or a sign of any growth. Rather, I see it as love... unwanted, unreturned. There is nothing to do with this but weep, and to accept. I stare into the face of limitless love, and sadly recognize my own face.

And so the only thing left to do is to love you. Just like this... like I love you... and let go. To where, for what, until when, I do not know.

boys boys boys

i am in love again.hah.....
aqilah too..
i can say that we need each other badly!
i need her crush s bestfriend
and she likes my crush s bestfriend
only god knows how deeply we re inlove HAHAHA.
i love that that that cute boy and she loves that that ego ish face boy!

things that i miss,
things like touching your hands,your gorgeous pair of eyes ,and your sweet lips HAHA<3
you will live in my memories,forever i swear ms,
i love you forever and always.

love

i know i screwed all up.but i will love you forever....

loiter

tuition!!!!!!!!!stresssss macam hanna!!
malam ...nik semua ajak lepak soo me and qilah pergi ac..QILAH pergi ac .perh ahhahahh!
FIRST TIME !demi seseorang dia sanggup jadi jahat;p
so i texted nik bfre amek aqilah at her house.and nik ckp dia da sampai ac.uuuuuu cepat.
sampai sampai i called nik and ..AKU TENGAH PARKING KETE.hahah babi betul belum sampai..so me and qilah naik dulu and met balbalbalbalabbalbalba.then..the boys sampai.
nik said fauzan bawak kete .uwww...so i pujuk fauzan to hantar me back home later.and he said duitt minyakkk haaha okay .dah deal ape semua.around 11.30 pusing pusing around usj s and 19 s .
so the driver,drifter syaqir..bawk kete macam bawak Subaru!lajunakmati!
sampai aqilah jadi hantu nik kate.;p
g rumah iman ..yes la iman!tak angkat phnee!!!!!!dorang dah siap C for you!
call arina pulak YES LAA bapak awak da kunci rumah!
then syaqir brought us to padang untuk fauzan KENCING bodoh ahhah.baru duduk 3 minit fauzan s mum called.so nak kena hanta da me and qilah balik..tengok tengok syaqir g pusing again?ahha ok then hanta aqila balik...and then me.....
and .now.FCKEDUPGILETHTSTUPIDSHITSANGATANNYINGTAHAPDEWA!IDONTWANT YOUFUCKER!gETLOST

aqilah alley

aizat kot baagi nama wtf.ke nik ke sapa ah ...wtf stands for.F. F stands for FALLING FOR YOU!.aqilah ali my friend tengah dilamun cinta...*cinta?*wouwwssa hahaha.she loves that WTF guy sampai tak terhingga ah.hahaha bak kata dia.kalau dia takda macam takda life nak kluar semua.
aku.bercinta pun tak seteruk kau ahhaah!
she wanna be on him!be on him!
she wanna see him !see him!
but he s not here !not here!
hes at the AStotheRAMA.
so saddy aqilah so saddy,
dont worry !dont worry!
ur time will come!
cus everyday when i see aqilah!
i see a girl yang bertambah tambah hot nye
macam maksaleh bak kataa nik!
rambut nya sudah kuning,matanya sudah hijau hijau !kulit putih la bak kata kau kan!?AHHAHA
kalau wtf tak menjadi ...DAN HUMFREY sentiasa available lagi gedang lagi comel !ops*

:D

arina texted me:wey.gotta call me now woah!!..
sara:pehal ngan dia nii.?ahhaha ok ah ilisa call.and she told ilisa the story
tengok tengok story dia...
arina:wey..kite kat papaarricch..and cam ada satu group laki hot babi.pastu mintak lighter kat kite .hahahaHAHAHHAHHAA bodoh tu je?and the cair part is the guy asked her name.
oooookay
ahhaaha bodoh nak mati arina bodoh!
todaay kluar with the girls....and two boys ahha.sooooo ilisa bought her shoes and belt.and dina pun dah jumpa baju !*sapa pilih dina sapa pilih??*ilisa sape pilihkan baju awak lisaa sapee?ahhaha ME;p
trust mee..they re gonna be THE HOTTTESSTT miaow tommrow!
........ANA WAIT FOR US AT UR PARTY>>>:D

still

_ _ _ ,i masih sayang kan u,and i want you back..

hanisah my baby<3

she wrote me the best thing ever in my life.

Dear Sara Sabrena,

I keep this feeling a really long time ago. Well, not that long I think maybe almost 7 or 8 months. The first thing is Thank You for being such a Goooooddd friend. At first, I really scared and thought about should I be your friend or should I not? And yet we can get along and so close. The reason why I choose you rather than my other million friends I have, because I want to apologize for what I did to you, last year. Still remember? We fought because of Syaqir. What a laugh! Do you still remember the letter that I gave you? Hahaha It was the most memalukan thing I had ever done. I just dont know why I wrote that letter. I was so stupid and immature at that time. Please burn it or throw it away or flush it into the toilet bowl. I used to be a unpredictable person but now when I grow older , I know how to think and react in any situation. Sara, I still can’t believe that you accept me as your friend after what I did to you. Last year was too drama and just forget the past and bring the joy :D 2009 has been a good year for me and I hope 2010 is better. New friends, new classmates, new character and still searching for a new boyfriend. Awesome! I love you as my friend and I want to thank God for having a good friend as you. Oh please Sara , forgive me and I never meant to cari pasal with you. I PROMISE that I will never repeat the same mistake ever! EVER! I don’t care you want to call me clown nose or what but hehehe.. I love you Sara and once again SORRY :)

I LOVE YOU HANISAH!!

another two days:D

IM HAVING MATHS AND SCIENCE paper TMMMRRRW ..my brain s going to explode soon.
N I MISS THAT GUY REALLY I DO!:D

parasite

and he said...

yh says:
sara
u know
no matter how much i loved my 1st love
i moved on
because
i know its not worth it to wait like this
to cry
when she doesnt even give a damn
really sara
my whole life changed just because of that 1st and very 1st
failed relationship
and look at me now
look what it did to me
so please sara
i dont want that to happen to you



ive tried my best .bt i just still cant.

abang suda balekkkkkkkkk.tommmrrw grak dinner mama s birthday*kaklong belanja**haha
aand carik my present !ahhaha im soo gonna get a new sound system with the woofer and all .i love itt i love ittt
and change my fucking slow pc.
to ilisa;I NEED MY PRESENT BABY AHAHA<3tak malu.
to arina:i need new purse!
to amy:WHERES MY DRESs la sayang!
to Im:thnk you for the selipar!i know sptutnya cheaper but takda size sooo Im kene beli lagi mahal nye !!HAHAHAHAH sorry baby.
emir:thank you for the beberapa batang je kimak ahahha!
and THANK YOUUUUUUUUU ILISA,AQILA,ARINA,DINA,FARHAN,AIMAN,KHALEDA N HANNAAA fr the sprise prty ahahha<3lawak babi sial korang.loveyouallll

pictures kat phn arina la aqilaaaaaaaaa~!!bodoh laa arina ni tak hanta hanta lagi shitzooo.
so no pictures and video tu cam gampang aku tak ske.ahahah
exam akan berakhir tak lama lAGIIIIIIIII YAAAAAAAhoo.
another three days je sara!!!gogogo!lepas itu kita bersuka riaaaaaa
;)

16;p

happy birthday to me!!happy birthday to me..!happy birthday to sara..happy birthday day to me..!:P